Still hating my job, Still looking for a new one

Sadly interviews are not turning in to jobs. Admittedly I think they could see that I was disgruntled, which I am. I think what I may need to do is, at least for now, get out of hospitality. Do something else, something different. I can use it as an excuse and look less disgruntled.

"Why are you looking to leave your current job?"

"I want to do something else."

Yeah that's so much better than everything is fucked and everyone sucks. OK, maybe not everyone sucks, but those that do make up plenty for those that don't. Seriously making me reconsider the nice things I said in one of my older blogs.

Particularly my boss. She's gone a mix of Orwell's 1984 and Dilbert's pointy haired boss on me. I get told I can't leave the front desk and I have to stand there the entire duration of my shift. There has been some going back and forth on this, but long story short, I've had cameras pointed at me in the past that were connected to recording equipment and never were they used to scrutinise over me on this level. Seriously since this shit has started I have all the stress of having a boss hover over my shoulder and none of the benefit. Not having management hover over me was the one thing I liked about my job. Furthermore, none of the other hotels where I worked cared if I was working in the back office and in fact most of those hotels required me to do all or at least part of the audit in the back office. Other hotels were real nice, monitor in the back where I could see what all the cameras saw and my own desk with a phone. That's how it ought to be done. It was always understood that I could not always be at the desk and it was never questioned. Now I'm a afraid to leave the desk, for any reason, because my boss might call to see how many times the phone rings or some shit. Fuck that, I need out.

Lately the rest of the front desk staff has been getting on my nerves. Usual shit that I haven't seen for a while. I ask them to take care of things that are better done during the day time. It does not get done. I remind them, it still does not get done. Some come in late. Some have really sloppy paperwork. Some just don't do parts of their job. For a few it's all of the above. Some days I'm left to feel like I need to work a double shift just to make sure things get done. I've got some good co-workers too, but the shit ones are really spoiling things.

Teamwork - If you want something done, do it yourself. Do it wrong, you take all the blame. Do it right, others are all too willing to take the credit.

I guess I could try to talk it over again and get things improved. That at best is temporary. A few months later shit will be fucked up again. It's like a damn rollercoaster. I've grown sick of riding this ride.

It probly will not end like that, more likely it will be like this...

The Economy Must Be Picking Up

I'm finding more available jobs and getting more interviews. If one of the interviews turns to a new job, that would just be awesome. The sooner I can move on the better. I fucking hate my job more than ever. There is no talking this over. There is no making this work. At this point I will gladly take a fucking pay cut to get the hell out.

If those worthless fucks I work for still read this shit, maybe they will get the message.

The message being that I do not appreciate having the stress and tension of having a manager hover over me while I work and not have any of the benefits of it. Seriously, that's the main reason I work audit in the first place.

Fuck you and fuck your camera. I'm so done.

I'm pissed, yet again.

Yeeeeeaaaaahhhhh, so I haven't made a post in who knows how the fuck long, but I'm pissed, I need to vent, and I'm not in a position where I can go on a rant in a youtube video at the moment. It's not like anyone really reads this tripe.

I'm pissed. I'm really fucking pissed. Want to know what has me so pissed? I will tell you any way. It's my job. Like I have not bitched about that before, right? This time it's a little different. I can't complain about my co-workers at the desk. Not even the morning crew. Sure some of them still come in late every now and again, but I've learned to just shut up and take the overtime money. I've grown to appreciate that. I came to realize that when I was bitching about people coming in late I was bitching something that results in me getting more money. It just seemed really silly after that.

I'm not pissed with my front office manager either. She's actually been pretty cool and I think some of my frustrations in the past may have been a bit premature and out of line. She's having the same difficulties as myself and everyone else that works at the desk and I believe that she has done all she can do about it. Last time I saw her she looked upset. Truth be told, I'd like to find a hotel that needs a front office manager, auditors and desk clerks. Just take everyone there with me. Except for that one guy, yeah him, he fucking sucks, like a supercharged vacuum.

How fucked up is that? I'm pissed. I want to quit. I would have been out of here already if I had another job to go to. On the other hand, I don't think people I work with should be left behind to deal with this shit. I also don't think my leaving is going to change anything. It's not going to "show them." It's not going to "send a message." Maybe I'll pass on to them, "this hotel needs a manager, this hotel needs a desk clerk." It's the least I can do. I have to move on. I've had enough.

So what has me so pissed? A big part of it is these damn computers and printers we have here. For months now I have been looking like a total fucking choad when a guest comes to the desk and needs to check in or out. At best they are pathetically slow. Most the time they lock up, crash, overheat, and/or give the blue screen of death. It takes a minimum of 20 minutes to reboot and get them to the point where I can  use the property management software. And that is if I'm lucky and everything works on the first reboot. Usually it doesn't. Usually it takes 5-6 reboots. Some times I get a lock up. Or a crash. Or a blue screen. The one printer I have left spews toner, prints slow and sounds like pebbles in a coffee grinder.  I used to have another printer available to me, but it has been sitting in the back office for 2 weeks now, broken and waiting for replacement. Next to it is a broken front desk computer. The onboard video card burned up on it a week ago. We used to have to open it up and let it cool off every night. In it's place is the computer that used to be on the front office managers desk. That one is actually pretty good, for now. So at the front desk I have one good computer, one that regularly gives the blue screen and a printer that will crap out any day now. Makes it hard for me to do my job. Even the one good computer strains and sometimes throws an error on the audit. I'd imagine it sucks for the day shift too.

These computers are old as fuck too. IBM's from 2005. Yeah, fucking 8 years old. They need to be replaced. The chain of hotels that I work for even has a replacement program as these are not the brand standard any more. My manager even wrote up an order for it. General manager won't sign off on it. He's holding this shit up. I have no fucking idea why. It doesn't make sense. I can barely do my job. It takes me half an hour to check someone in. I can't issue guests that are checking out a receipt. I have reports and receipts that look like someone wiped their ass with them. I couldn't deposit credit cards one night because of a problem and it took tech support the better part if a day to fix it. What is it going to take? business to totally come to a halt?

Here's another thing that is pissing me off. I have no place to sit. Is a fucking table and a couple of chairs too much to ask for? Seriously, holy fucking shit. They put this big overdone sign and larger than life size picture of luggage in the luggage storage room. No one is going to see that shit. Obviously a couple of computers and printers are way over the top, but a fucking table and chairs? I just want a place to do my busy work and take my break. Eating at the desk is just fucking tacky and someone always walks in on me. FUCKING PRIORITIES! COMMON FUCKING SENSE! I want to work for someone that gives a shit and spends money a bit more intelligently. IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK? Next thing you know they will build a fucking water park while the desk clerks are having to hand write everything. Oh wait....

Seriously, am I wrong in wanting to move on? I don't want to look like a total fucking choad. I want equipment that works as hard as I do. I fucking want a place to sit down. Yeah it may sound like first world problems, but I live in the god damn first world mother fucker. Sure there's a guy in some shithole that would carve up his own genitals for my job and fry them up in a pan and eat them for what I get paid, but that's his problem.

So I asked my girlfriend about this...

And she confirmed it was bullshit as I suspected. She saw nothing of the like when she was stationed in Afghanistan.

Source
She didn't even see any donkeys over there. 

They want me to repent, but I can't

The main reason I am an atheist is that, based on evidence, I do not believe that any god exists. This is not just limited to the Christian God, but any and all gods that mankind has dreamed up. The only religion where anyone has pushed at me to repent of my non-belief is Christianity. I just cannot do that. Here's the problem - even if God's very existence was proven to me, I would then need to know if the Bible was true and correct. The more we learn about the world around us, the more it becomes clear that, from a scientific standpoint, the Bible is inaccurate at best.

Science aside, there are still other difficulties I have. I find the God of the Bible to be horribly immoral. Genocide, slavery, death penalty for working on the Sabbath or being homosexual, forcing rape victims to marry their rapist, and the occasional human sacrifice does not sound like a deity that any moral being should have anything to do with.

Furthermore, the gift, the sacrifice of Jesus, is completely absurd at best. If the goal was forgiveness, couldn't he have just offered it without the Jesus suit for 30 some years and the ending drama? Couldn't he have just changed his outrageous laws? According to Young Earth Creationists, there's about 4,000 years between Adam and Jesus. That's a long time to let one's creation go without a saviour. And he comes down with this saviour and his message in a sparsely populated part of the world where most people were illiterate. Why there? Why not Rome or Athens? It's all just so senseless. And you have to accept all this on faith, otherwise you burn in Hell for all eternity.

That's another thing, God's divine justice system. One can be an axe murderer and as long as they repent, they get rewarded in Heaven. Meanwhile, one can do a load of good for mankind and not have faith in God or Jesus, and they get to burn in Hell. That's kinda bullshit, don't ya think? It becomes even more bullshit in real world cases where someone gets away with murder. People become outraged, right? Now let's take that a step further. Let's say we have a murderer on trial and someone else, who didn't do anything wrong, winds up taking the punishment and the murderer gets a mansion. That would be some serious bullshit, right?

Finally, as human beings we have such wonderful things as free will, critical thinking and the ability to reason. Yet this God character gets really butt hurt when we use any of that. It's like he favours sycophants and mindless drones. Why create something, give it free will, then punish it for using that? Seriously, WTF?

It boggles my mind how anyone could accept this let alone preach it. Though I am aware that most people that call themselves Christian have never read the whole Bible and those that have pick and choose from it. I cannot repent in any sense and why should I? I can neither believe nor accept what I read in the Bible. I'm not saying it's all bad, but the bad stuff by far out weighs the good stuff.

#notObama, #notRomney

I'm going to "throw my vote away" and vote for Gary Johnson.

Really, voting for someone you do not believe in or agree with is throwing away your vote. Stop being part of the problem.

Fundies Can Ruin Anything

Or at least turn it in to a platform for proselytising.

Source.

Let's see...

1. Anti-gay
2. "Pro-life"
3. Projection

That's a hell of a trifecta, if only he could have worked in Godwin's Law.

That's quite the convincing argument you present

Said no one. EVER

aCultureWarrior is on the war path again.

I don't make this shit up.

If you have not lately, you should check out my youtube channel. I will be posting every day in October.

Elite, Smart People Are Not On the Conservatives' Side Apparently.

If I didn't know better I'd think this was made up. Like it was from The Onion or Christwire or something. And I don't know what is more amusing – That he pretty much said his audience was stupid, or that they applauded it.

I think I see his point, it's more to the conservatives' advantage to have the uneducated zealously accept whatever is in front of them. That was his point, right?

Considering this was part of a speech made at the Values Voters Summit, is a given level of ignorance now a value?

This guy is a goldmine.

Source.

 I'm probly going to include this in an upcoming video, just, well, because.

"While I'm not going to delve into things like homosexual teen clubs and homosexual child molestation right now, I will say that these homosexual "elders" that encourage confused children to accept that they are homosexual and that they can do nothing to change it, are "grooming" these children for a life of promiscuity, disease and an early grave."

Perfectly rational.

I don't know, maybe what he said does not apply to pansexuals and/or transgeders. Maybe I'm doing it wrong.

So I got to thinking

Yeah I know, really fucking dangerous, right? Don't strain myself, right?

But seriously. I uploaded a video Friday that I put a few hours into and it was only about 5 minutes long. The main reason I do not appear in my videos is because I'm too lazy to spend an hour fussing over hair and makeup for a 5 minute video.

Now that just seems silly.

I mean if I have a few hours to kill I might as well look fabulous in front of a camera, right?

Not sure how good my webcam is though.

Something to think about, at least for something to do every now and again.

BTW, if you have not seen my most recent video, have a look -

So that explains it

Saw this on my Facebook feed -

Could explain why the 7 AM shift is always late.

That whole posting of fundie nonsense that I do...

I'm turning it in to a video series.


Well I'm going to try to.



Here's the first instalment-

A twisted ride thru my brain

Two sisters preparing to attend a family reunion.

"Oh my gaaawd! Are you seriously wearing that?"

"There might be some cute boys."

"It's a family reunion, you will probly be related to them!"

"Uh. So! Mom and Dad have the same last name and you don't complain!"

This again?

Yes, this again.

Because the "crime" of being gay is the same as murder, rape, incest, bestiality, paedophilia, etc. It's all the same really.