Knew it couldn't last

Yeah, I knew it.

Though I am a little surprised, I hope nothing is wrong.

Just saying.

*waving to my co-worker that is reading this*

So I'm trying to watch Nid Week on Beasts of War

And I'm being bothered by drunk people.

Oh wait, I'm at work and I don't get paid to watch Beasts of War. I don't get paid to bitch about it in my blog either. And I don't think people I work with get paid to read about my bitching in my blog, well that is if they are reading this at work.

Any who.

Even if I were doing things I get paid for at the moment (I'm as done as I can get at this point), getting bothered by people who are already pretty loaded and want to get more loaded is pretty annoying.

Well it's about that time of the night for me to do more stuff. Once all that's done, it's back to Beasts of War.


And probly getting bothered by more drunk people.

So it's December 20th....

Almost the 21st.

I have no idea what I'm doing for my birthday.

I'm off for the night so I'm asuming it's going to be just another night off.

Which really sucks. I just want to go out some where and have a few drinks. That's all I want. And since both me and Kathy are broke untill after Christmas, I'm probly just going to be giving that to myself after the holidays.

Sadly, that's been a typical birthday for me for thje past few years.

Well here's a big thanks in advance for nothing.

What the fuck?

Middle of fuckin October and it's 88 fuckin degrees out-fuckin-side.

And fuckin 88-fuckin-% humidity.

And no fuckin wind.

I fuckin hate it here.

FUCK!

I feel old

I have students that were born after 1990.

This is just weird for me.

And I can't get my laptop on this school's wireless.

Darn it all.

I wonder if the kids will notice me playing Oblivion while they are watching a movie. I know that's a really bad example, but I have 6 classes that are all watching the same movie.

I can access the internet through the teacher's computer. But I would rather use mine.

Been really tired the past few days

I'm not sure if I'm just not getting enough sleep or if it's the fact that I have been sleeping on the floor. I also have new neighbors that are very loud and almost always shouting at each other. It's kinda like being next door to a couple of guests from the Jerry Springer Show.

Right now I feel exhausted. Like I could fall asleep at the desk at any moment. That's what I could really use right now. Sleep. In a nice comfy bed. In a comfy pair of jammies. Cuddled up with my girlfriend. That would be the best.

I'm not going to get into details in an effort to avoid drama.

The skinny of it is that my roommate moved out and I'm left in my apartment by myself. I'm cool with that. The problem I have is that all I have there is what I moved out of my parents' with. It isn't much. My clothes, my laptop, not much else.

No furniture, no appliances (except for the fridge and stove), no cookware, not even a bed. Worse yet, no running vehicle either. Makes getting stuff difficult.

I'm just venting.

I can get the bills paid on my paycheck from the hotel. It doesn't leave much left over for buying stuff. I'm hoping I can substitute teach enough on my days off.

This sucks, but I think I can work my way out of it. I started this blog as a plea for help. I could use a bail out, but I'll bail myself out, thanks.

I've decided to sell the Escort

Just going to sell it as is. I know I won't get much for it, but I can't afford to fix it. I need the money. I took it off the insurance today.

This really sucks.

So things are not turning out like I planned

Or even like I had hoped. Things happen. Stuff happens. Life happens.

I've got some issues going on. Some that I care not to talk publicly about, but still issues.

I'm depressed, annoyed, generally unhappy at the moment but still optimistic. Trying to make it all work out.

Life sucks without a car

Normally I would not complain, but not having a running vehicle does put a damper on one's fun.

Streetcar Charlie's in Ybor City is having a drag contest this Sunday. The prize is a paid booking, they are looking for a new cast member. A paid booking would be awesome, but I really just want to be back on stage.

And I have no means of getting there.

I suck at life

I do.

I don't know what else to say.

I don't know what to do anymore.

I don't mean to sound mopey and depressed

but life is not what I want it to be right now.

I was able to drive the car home from where it was sitting overnight. I shouldn't have tried to drive it to work. It didn't make it and now I have a $80 tow bill. There goes my money and I can totally forget about going to DragonCon. :(

A new fuel pump for the car is going to run me about $180. Couldn't have hit me at a worse time.

I'm irked, sad, just miserable. I'm thinking "what did I do to deserve this?" All this is just bringing me down. I'm broke. My car doesn't run. It's a week and a half until payday. About the only thing that is really keeping my sanity is that I have good friends that have helped me out here and there. One of my co-workers gave me a ride home yesterday. Another friend gave me a ride to work tonight. For this I am thankful. I also have a girlfriend that loves me despite all this, I am thankful to have her as well.